Friday, November 28, 2008

hello hello.
So yesterday was thanksgiving, that was pretty cool. Courtney and I went to the football game to see some people from high school. It was much more awkward than expected... but oh well. If it was the awkward and at times unbearable then I can only imagine the 5 year, 10 year, 20 year reunion and so on. After that I had dinner at my house and stuff, and did the whole family thing for most of the day. Then I hung out with Courtney and Ashley, which was interesting, to say the least. I found out that my grandfather was placed back in the ICU, which really fucking sucks. I don't think it's getting any better, so i don't really know what's gonna happen. And of course my dad always says dumb shit like "i think he's coming to the end," just to be dramatic and make everyone feel like shit.

Today I did nothing all day. I talked to my dad because he picked up my new (ashley's old) guitar that was getting fixed and restrung. He's insisting that I take lessons, even though i'd kind of rather learn on my own... but I guess his idea makes much more sense. Later on in the day, Courtney and I went to American Apparel and then we all went to La Salette... it was pretty cool because I haven't been there in years. It was nice to hang out with everyone and just laugh and talk about stupid shit.

As I said before, I really want to go away to school next year. I know that I my indecisiveness often gets the best of me, causing me to change my mind about it constantly. However, this time, I really need to stick to it... I'm often apprehensive about actually going away, but I know that if I actually just do it I'll be fine; so i need to keep telling myself this.

GiRlTaLk ToMmOrRoW!

Thursday, November 27, 2008

"What is it, to live?" asks the old man,
a man who has become meek and feeble from the wear and tear of life.
Bitter to the bone after years of self deprivation and ridicule,
the man looks to his wrinkles and asks to himself, whole heartily, simply, "life?"

These fine lines and pieces of sagging flesh are not the result of age,
but the compilation of recurring incidents and "mishaps".
Each of which have left him with a further general apprehension and disdain than before.
Each taking away from, while simultaneously adding to, that which we call life.

He has seen people take, but not give.
Been witness to countless wars.
This man has said "goodbye" to wives, husbands, mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, and all those in between.

Time and again, the man has said "goodbye."
But never "hello."

"The fire of devotion was only an ember."

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Most of my day was pretty boring, to say the least. I got a haircut, and then went to the library to work on a paper and got close to nothing done. I blame this solely on facebook and myspace... the internet has ruined my life... but i don't know what i would do without it. It's like meth or something. Anyway, I worked @ cHiLiS from about 5-930.

After that I went to go pick up Courtney, because she's home for the weekend! I love cout, she's really my best friend. I honestly can't really think of more than one fight that we've ever been in... I have a few best friends, but i think out of everyone we get on each other's nerves/fight the least. And we have so much in common. I think that we could hang out every day, which we have, and we would never get sick of each other. We're the same person.

Next: I think I'm going to apply to Emerson for next year. If that doesn't work out then I'm hoping that Emmanuel accepts me, once I send my last reccomendation letter in. I really need to get away from Seekonk and do something interesting with my life. Broaden my horizon's, if you will. It's time for a change.