Meanwhile, the statues are bleeding green.

So, it's been approximately 4.5 months since the last time i posted on here. I say to myself at least once a week that I should get on here and at least write something. Even if it's just a few words, just to let everybody that doesn't read my blog know that i'm still alive.

Well... I ended up in Boston at Emmanuel. I couldn't come to a decision for months until I finally just decided to go for it. I'm glad that I made the decision though. Aside from feeling occasionally home sick and not knowing whether i'm actually enjoying myself or not, it's a good thing that i've taken myself out of my comfort zone. This is not to say that i'll forget anyone or anything back at home. On a daily basis, i continue to think about Providence, Seekonk, and the people that i've grown so attached to over the past few years. It's only 45 minutes away from home but it feels like a world away.

Since being here, I've met some really great people. I've really enjoyed getting to know emily and sebastian so far, as well as a wide array of others. And of course, Courtney is here and she's my best friend. Sometimes I think that she doesn't actually know the extent of which i care about her. While others will unceasingly stab her in the back, i am always here for her. Anyway, it's fun just hanging out and having people around all the time.

On an academic note, my classes are going well. I'm currently taking Critical Inquiry, Persuasive Strategies, Design and Comp, and Intro to Digital Processes. So far, my classes have been harder and work load heavier than last year, but it's still early in the semester to really tell. I joined the Emmanuel's literary magazine, Bang! (this is the name of it, i am not a tool.) Opportunely, I was elected to be the media assistant on the exec board. I'm not quite sure what this will entitle, but i'm glad that i've gotten involved. We'll see how it all goes.

I'd still enjoy falling in love. That's all.

everything

I got a new tattoo. It's the CMYK printing process except in the form of color blocks rather than converging circles. I realized that I got another tattoo that I'm going to have to explain to everyone. I'll just start saying "like a printer cartridge." People seem to better understand that.

Exams are this week; I have one tomorrow, and then one more on monday morning. My drawing professor posted final grades and I got a B+. This I was rather excited about just because none of the art professors seem to give out A's, so this is the next best thing. And, If I decide to apply for the BFA. program once I'm done with my foundation art classes, a B+ will suffice, as anything lower than a B does not make the cut. If I do apply for the BFA program, I'll probably drop my communications major, as I would be talking more related classes in photography along with the Graphic Design major.

Still seriously thinking about studying abroad next spring. If I do, It'll probably be a program in Florence. I think I'm gonna' do it... That is if I can afford it/ get enough financial aid.

just an update...

It's been over two months since my last post. As much as I'd like to say that much has changed, I know that nothing has really changed.

This week will be the last week of my freshman year at RIC, so I'm pretty excited about that. I can't believe the first year is already over. It seems like just yesterday that everyone was off to school and I was left here to rot. However, I really do like RIC. I like the cirriculum, the art center, the people (some of them), the diversity, the education... I really do like it.

Caitrin and I were supposed to move out on June 1st. We found and apartment, payed a deposit, and filled out an application. Unfortunately, Caitrin won't be able to go through with it because of some family issues. This really sucks. However, now that I've given it much thought, I think It would be best for me to study abroad next spring. I would hate to regret not traveling and expanding my world view when I had the chance. Right now I'm considering Italy-- Florence or Rome. Although I may also consider Ireland or London.

After seeing the SHS production of Sweet Charity (...) this past Friday, I realized how much I miss acting and the atmosphere of the theatre. I'm going to audition for a straight play (non-musical) called "Fools" in Bristol for my aunt's theatre group this summer. It's w play written by Neil Simon set in early 1900 Russia. It seems pretty interesting, and I have no plans for the summer, so why not?

As for me (as if I haven't been talking about myself for the past couple of paragraphs), I'm doing fine. I'm just going through the motions.

I woke up to another hole in the mattress.

The sheets were clean, but the pillowcases reeked of what i knew the day would ensue.

Following through with the motions of my daily routine,

I sunk to the slope of the bath tub.

I prayed that the world would end before i set to it. 

The air is stale, 

and i intend to do nothing more than inhale.

So i'll tighten my grip and loosen the reins;

despondency like this comes with the tides.

i made my way down to the supermarket

Hello.  It's been a couple weeks.  The only big thing that has changed since my last post is that my car shit the bed.  However, I'm now driving my grandfather's kick-ass 07' Toyota Sienna minivan, since he'll most likely never be able to drive again.  Besides the fact that driving a minivan at my age is simply unacceptable, it's awesome.  My dad wants me to pay the monthly payments on it, which are 350 bucks, but if I'm going to pay that much money for a car, it's not going to be a minivan.  I'm going to see if I can trade it in for a toyota yaris hatchback.  That's if I don't go away to school next year.  It's happening again.  I go through these phases where I want so badly to go away to school, Boston in particular.  And then I realize how much I love Providence, and I'm right back at square one again.  Providence kicks Boston's ass ANY DAY.  The whole objective of my wanting to go away to school has been that I want to meet more people, but, more recently, i've been successively doing just that.  I really love Providence.  I don't think I'd ever feel at home in another city.  If I do end up staying, I need to get an apartment next year.  I can't continue to live at home.  And I guess now that I don't have a gas guzzling piece of shit car that's literally falling apart, then I have one less reason to want to go away.  I miss my volvo already, I have so many memories (blunt rides with courtney) in it. I literally feel like a piece of me has died, as dramatic as it sounds.  

My classes are going pretty well. This semester will be tough though, I can already tell.  But, I'm making friends in a few of my classes.  Mostly guys, which is really exciting for me, since i've only ever had a handful of guy friends.  I still don't know exactly what i'd like to do with my major.  I either want to major in graphic design and minor in communications, or vice versa.  My concentration in communications would probably be public relations.  Who knows what i'll do. 

In further news, Sasha, Sam, and I have started a band.  The name of the band is "Okapi."  Sasha named it after some odd animal indigenous to the plains of africa.  It has the head of a giraffe, the torso of a horse, and the ass and legs of a zebra.  It's rather odd looking.  Ultimately, it's a member of the giraffe family.  Google it.  Anyway, I really think the band might work out.  All of us seem to have a pretty solid "background" in music.  We were all in our high school marching bands.  I played the drums for six year,  Sasha has played the guitar for a while, and Sam the piano.  Therefore, Sasha is the guitarist, Sam is the keyboardist, and I am the percussionist.  All of us will sing, but I think it will be Sasha that dominates that part of the band, with Sam and I mostly singing backup and harmonies.  We already have one song in the works called "Midnight morals."  The three of us have gotten pretty close lately.  

That's pretty much it. 

first day of second semester

As you (who? ashley, and random kid) can probably tell, today was my first day of classes of the semester.  I woke up at 8:15, which is probably the earliest that i've woken up since last semester. I got to School in a half hour, even with the outrageous traffic that seems to only come at the beginning of a new semester.  I'm noticing a pattern (one of many).  My first class at 9:30 was Mass Media and Society.  It was cold, and my professor couldn't log onto the computer to show her powerpoint presentation.  She explained the syllabus, and I can safely say that I'm not looking forward to that class.  My Social Psychology class was at 11:00 and it was fine.  I've never had a class in a large lecture hall so that'll be cool I guess.

I had lunch with Caitrin.  We got sandwiches from Geoff's and brought them to her house.  

My Drawing class was at 2:00.  We drew an ironing board with a box on top of it.  We also got a list of supplies that we'll need, and it's probably going to cost me over $100 dollars.  I currently have literally $4.00 to my name.

I'll elaborate more on how I'm feeling next time.  I'm too tired right now.

i'm trying.

but not hard enough.